“For
my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the LORD. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my
ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts." - Isaiah 55:8-9
One of my favorite memories is driving around our Mandarin
neighborhood one December taking in the Christmas lights with my then-3-year-old son.
"Look, mommy!" he kept saying excitedly, "How beautiful!" He was so enthralled by even the simplest light display.
I
looked back and smiled at my blond-haired wonder. I was amazed by the love I felt for this little person. Just a short while back, in my pregnancy days, I was fairly confident I didn't really want a little boy.
My
husband and I already had a much-anticipated daughter, and I preferred another girl. After all, my daughter was eager for a female playmate, I was set with clothes and toys, and it just seemed ideal. Besides, in my
experience, little boys were loud, rambunctious and . . . well . . .
foreign. I grew up with sisters. I knew nothing about little boys, and I wasn't that eager to learn.
But God had a different plan in mind. When it the time came for my ultrasound, the doctor asked, "Do you think it's a girl or boy?"
"Girl," I answered.
"No, it's a boy."
"Are you sure?" I asked in disbelief.
"I wanted a sister," my daughter said flatly. At least my husband was excited.
Thank goodness, my
daughter and I warmed up to the idea of a boy before Caleb Scott made his grand
entrance into the world. But
never in a million years could I have predicted the
joy I would experience mothering my little boy! He is charming, bright, and sensitive. He is wise beyond his years, and already a heart for God. Sure,
he can be a bit rambunctious at times, but he he also keeps us in stitches. Yes, his
obsession with construction equipment is a mystery to me, but I
appreciate his boundless enthusiasm. He truly makes our family
complete, and I can't imagine our lives without him.
I marvel that
God, in his infinite wisdom, saw what I could not see. He blessed me
with an exquisite gift I didn't ask for and didn't know I wanted. How good He is to us! And what a reminder that He sees beyond what we can see, and we an trust Him with all the details of our lives.
